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What The Hell Do I Know w/JB

What The Hell Do I Know w/JB

I Spent 9 Years Trying to Hold Onto Jesus | Dr. Todd Phillips | Ep. 101

Sep 22, 2026 · 1h 25m

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What happens when a pastor spends nine years trying to hold onto Jesus…and eventually realizes he no longer believes? Dr. Todd Phillips spent more than two decades as a Christian and pastor, serving in some of the largest evangelical churches in America. But after years of questioning, studying, wrestling and searching for reasons to stay, Todd eventually landed somewhere he never expected: he now describes himself as a “non-resistant nonbeliever.” And he didn’t get there easily. In this conversation, Todd and I sit down for an honest discussion about deconstruction, doubt, biblical inerrancy, hell, salvation, suffering, the resurrection, certainty, and what happens when the faith that once…